Ouroboros dream insight

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my insight of that dream mainly concerns the part where i saw the snake symbols within the matrix like structure near the end of the dream. The reason why i believe that i dreamed of this part, concerns the idea that i have believed myself to be ever since i started following spirituality, way back in the year 2000.

At the time, i wanted to find myself a new alias in order for me to participate within chats over the internet. I was tired of the alias that i had back then, which was "caramon" and i wanted to find a new alias that would have a better fit to what i perceived myself to be at the time. What i had just lived back then, was THE experience which made me realise that i was more than my physical body. This experience had such a profound impact on me, that it completely changed my way of seeing life and who i was within it.

I had an outer body experience. The experience had brought to my awareness a new perspective that i wasn't cognitizant of, previously to that moment. àThe new awareness brought me to perceive myself as being a source whiwh outlasted time itself, since when within the 'outer body' experience, i saw my human physical body from the outside perspective - where i felt myself moving my limbs but where nothing of my body actually showed me that i was moving my limbs. Within this experience, without going further into the details of it, i realised that i was "more than" my human physical body and i felt that i connected myself with a greater span of awareness as myself - to which i perceived then as being somewhat of a reconnection with my true identity.

So, it was after this experience that i started delving into the world of spirituality. I started discarding everything that i believed myself to be that came from what i described then as being "my past life", which was the life that i've had that preceded the event of my 'outer body experience'. Thus, everything that i thought myself to be which didn't include my own felt and lived experiences, were discarded - thus, i discarded all of my religious and scientific teachings, only to focus my "beliefs" - of which i didn't really call it that, but more of "facts of who i truly am" which i did not perceive as being beliefs, for a belief implies that which is followed without the support of any personal experiences of what the belief implies - on what i directly experienced.

Within this time frame, i was an avid participant in chats that were, at the time (year 2000) one of the only means of chatting found within the internet. The medium through which i was chatting from, was mIRC which stands for microsoft internet relay chat. Previously to that experience, i used an alias within this chat that coincided to what i wanted to project as an image of myself to the other 'chatters'. That projection as the image that i chose, was carried by the name 'caramon' which was a fictionnal character from the books of 'dragon lance' to which i was particularly fond of. I was fond of this character because he ressembled, at least to my own imagination, the being that i wanted to look like. He was described as being a very muscular and athletic being to which nothing could withstand. I wanted to see myself as him (a dna heritage coming from my father matrix system, where my father was particularly fond of his physical appearance, being focussed most of his life in the practice of weightlifting) , so i employed his name all throughout the chats that i participated in, because i wanted others to see me as i saw him as myself within my mind's eyes. Through the alias 'caramon', i became the being that i wanted to be like and that is the name that projected me within the medium of mIRC while i was chatting with fellows internet users back in the year 2000.

All of this drastically changed, as if turning on a dime, after i've had my personal 'out of body experience'. I was so changed by the experience, that my awareness of myself suddently and most drastically changed in order to encompass a far greater sense of self than the limited sense of self that i had previously to that experience. So, it was after this event that i started using the name that would have, up to desteni, symbolised my alliegiance to my 'new found identity'.

After the experience, my perception of the world and of my place within it completely changed, from one moment to the next, and what i previously saw as being important, became completely unimportant. I no longer saw myself as being caramon, since i saw what he represented within my mind as being completely shallow and superficial. That wasn't the impression of myself that had been left within me by the 'outer body experience'. No. What was left as the heritage of the experience, was that who i was was far more profound and mystical than what i previously saw myself as being. So, with that in mind, i wanted a 'new name' to see myself as - a 'new idea' about myself that would carry the profoundity of the experience within me, as a reminder of who i saw myself as being within the outer body experience.

I had no clue where to look for such a symbol for me to carry with me as my new identity. I had no clue as to what my new identity represented, other than the impression that the outer body experience left within myself, which was the impression that i was 'more than' anything that i could possibly think of. So, with that in mind, i started looking within my belongings, for a name that i could use to replace the alias 'caramon'. That's when i thought of looking within a 'particular dictionary' for the name that could fit as best as possible, what i then saw myself as being.

Within that time frame - surrounding the year 2000 - i was really into the study of dreams as to what they represented within me. My dream life was so rich and vivid, that i wanted to know what my dreams meant as i believed that they carried specific messages about myself that i was ment to understand. So, i had bought myself a 'symbols dictionary' strictly for that purpose.

As i was looking for a new name to represent my new felt identity, i came into the vecinity of the symbols dictionary. Now, before i opened the dictionary, i told myself within my mind, that i would take the first name that my eyes would fall upon, because i strictly believed that faith had a say in the name that i were to wear as the symbol that would carry my new identity, as that which came to me from the direct outer body experience (at least, what i 'thought' of it being at the time). So, i opened the dictionary which was filled with symbols of different meanings, and directly came upon the one symbol that i would use ever since as a representation of 'who i am'. That symbol, was the Ouroboros (if you can recall, that was the name that i originally used when i first came into the open forum, but which have been recently changed by the forum administrator to Alex P) and it came to me by means of faith - as far as i could tell then - as it was the first symbol that my eyes gazed upon directly after opening the dictionary to an haphazard page. What struck me as i read the definition of the symbol, was that it represented enternity, as it was the representation of the never ending cycles of life eating itself in order to sustain it's own existence. The imagery used by the dictionary to represent this cycle, was that of the snake eating it's own tail - where the snake represented life as life eating it's own self in order to sustain the eternal cycle of life.

Now, ever since i saw this definition of Ouroboros, mingled with the fact that the definition fitted to the tee to what was imprinted within my mind from the experience of being 'out of my body', i started using it as a representation of who i truly was. I used that name everywhere i went from that point on as i saw myself as being the meaning that it represented. I used that name everywhere i went for i wanted a reminder of what i felt within the experience of being 'out of my body' - i wanted to remember the experience as i felt more alive than any other moment of my life previous to that experience. So, ouroboros became my calling name. I still use it to this day, for most if not all of my life accounts have ouroboros and it's meaning as a name and password - strictly used to imprint within my mind, the awareness of my true identity as that which never dies, but is eternal.


Hence, what i kept from the definion was not the representation of it as the snake eating it's own tail, but the meaning of it as eternity. That particular meaning of me being eternal, was what stuck with me. The feeling that i gathered from my 'mystic' experience fitted perfectly within it's given sense of forever expansive awareness, to the concept of eternity.

However, i also became curious to what the Ouroboros symbol represented, and it was later that i discovered that it represented a snake eating it's own tail. I came about many different interpretations of the symbol, most of which were depicting snake or dragon like creatures, all of which were eating their own tales by forming a seemingly perfect circle.

Thus, now that i have given an overview of my inner affiliations with the name ouroboros, we come back to my dream. So, as i saw the different snake like entities that seemed to be held within a hive-like matrix structure, all curled up while forming a spiral spiralling downwards to the central point of their allocation within the matrix structure, the voice came to me, telling me that "it is easy to remember the symbols". What i thus see now that i have looked within me to the origin of the symbols within my conscious or subconscious awareness, is that the voice was the voice of the inprint within my mind, that i have created as to remind myself of who I really am as an eternal being, through the symbolic representation of the snake eating it's own tail. However, the perspective that was given to me through my dream, was that the snake like entity was all curled up within a space that seemed to small for it's own freedom of movements - and also, that the snake like entity from which i zoomed back of, was surrounded by other snake like entities which were all in the same disposition as the one from which i zoomed back of, having the voice tell me 'it is easy to remember the symbols' as i was zooming back.

The impression that i got from the scene, was that there were millions if not billions of other snake like entities that were held within this matrix structure - each and every one of them curled up in exactly the same disposition within a small circle that consisted of an allocation point within the matrix/hive-like structure.

The insight i thus got from this dream, especially from the part where i was presented to the sight of the snakes which were held within their own patterns was that, although having come to the conclusion that i am eternal, that that doesn't mean that i am free from enslavement. What was shown to me was that my previous belief of being eternal, was correct but discarded the predispisition of that eternity, to which the dream showed me exactly what my idea of eternity consisted of, which is an eternity of enslavement.

Thus, as the perspective was zooming out of the scene, i saw many other snake like entities with the exact predisposition of the one i was zooming out of, where they were all curled up inside their tiny spaces. This i gathered was a representation of all of our predisposition within eternity within the matrix structure that the annunaki has created for us, not realising that by doing so, they as the reptilians snake in the dream, were emprisoning themselves within and as their own creation.

So, the dream pointed out to me that i am one and equal as the snake like entities, and that the only way for me to get out of this emprisonement, is to free myself from the bubble where i have secluded myself within.

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