Dream of ouroboros symbol

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I do not remember the exact details of the dream i had this morning, but i do remember however, the general contents of it. I will write as much as i remember, although the pace and chronology may be off, since i mostly perceive unrelated bits and pieces of it at the moment.

So, in the dream, as far as i can remember of it chronologically, i was in a house that was single layered. What i mean by single layered, was that the house only contained one level or maybee two, considering the basement - a flat house which lays flat on the ground, without an upper level like the houses i'm use to think of when i think of an house. I remember the feeling that i was looking at this dream, within the dream itself, as if i was looking at one of the Simpson's episode where the father that i saw in the dream, which was my real father, was homer simpson and where I as myself within the dream, was bart simpson.

So, i was in the garage with my father - at least as far as i can remember when considering the starting point of my dream (i know that there were other important events before this point in my dream, but the memory is to shaggy for me to really know if it was my dream or just me trying to connect the loose ends of the different images i remember of the dream). If i remember correctly the preceding events of the dream, my father had an argument with my mother - to which i perceived as being somewhat marge simpson, but not exactly - and he was angry when he came in the garage where i stood.

There were cars outside on the parkway - expensive and luxurious cars - and my father was directed by a being within the garage, who seemed like being a friend of my father or some sorts. My father abided to him without question, as if my father was underneath the being in status. I saw in my father's face that he was holding his rage within him, because he was still angry over the argument and the fight he had with my mother in the dream - to which i do not recall exactly. However, instead of letting his anger out, he held it within himself because he was in the presence of the being with whom i perceived as being his 'superior' of some sorts. I say 'superior of some sorts' but not in an hierarchical kind of way, but more like he was his friend and that the relationship he had with the being, was greater than the honest expression of his anger and dissaproval to what the being told my father to do.

The being was the owner of the cars that were parked in the parking lot, and he gave 'orders' to my father, asking him to place the cars in the garage. My father abided but his demeanor suggested that he wasn't reluctent in doing the bidings of the other being, because he did it with a smile, all the while conversing with the being as if he was his best friend - he was joking around, discussing about "women" as to releave himself from the argument he just had with my mother (if i remember correctly the parts that preceded this event...).

So, I stood there in front of the garage door in the parkway, watching my father bring the cars in the garage where he was asked by the being to put into a trailer of some sorts. I specifically remember thinking that the being was greek, as he had greacy hair. Anyway, so my father brought one of the cars in the garage to put into the trailer. However, as he came near the trailer while driving the car to place into the trailer, he scratched one of the sides of the car. Immediately, he adopted a kind of a 'lower dog' attitude where he got out of the car and started repeatedly blaming himself for what had just happenned. What i noticed about his behavior was that he was acting like my sister when she knew she had done something wrong when she was younger - he talked nonsensically without any repose as if he wanted to fill all of the empty space left by the silences inbetween each words, so that he could not hear the judgements of the other being, being afraid to know what the other being said about him (that is exactly what i sometimes did in the past also - sometimes, when i did something wrong and i knew that i would get "flamed" for it by those around me, i started talking to myself over what i could hear about the other's opinion, just so that i could not be conscious of his opinions - wanting to keep myself in my bubble and not face the truth of the consequences of my actions). My father didn't want the greek being to be dissapointed by him. He kept saying : "i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault" all the while repeating himself just so that he could not hear the opinion of the greek being - almost like my father was a child being afraid of his father.

Then, as i was looking at this scene, my dog (i don't have a dog in real life but let's not forget that within this dream, i perceived everything as if it was a simpson's episode and bart has a dog...) came to me to play with a frisbee. I noticed tho that his lower jaw was unhinged. I say that i noticed it, but i didn't realise it.

A female voice then resonated within me which made me realise the disposition of my dog by telling me that the jaw of the dog was loose. She told me that my father earlier beat the dog with a metal clench, to which it dislocated his jaw.

The voice then overlayed the whole scenery, as if it was narrating what was occurring within the dream. As the voice spoke, the scenery changed (there were chronological events that lead to where i am going with this dream, but i do not remember them) and i was brought within a hive-like structure. I say hive-like because that is the closest image that i can currently think of to describe what i saw. It wasn't exactly like the shape of a hive, but more like a matrix of some sorts where each parts were the same size and contained the same elements. The "elements" that were contained within each and every allocation circle within the matrix consisting of rows and columns of circle as allocation points, were snake/reptilian like entities that were twirled into a spiral. Within each and every allocation point within the matrix structure, were snake like symbols that had their bodies twirling into a spiral.

What was specific about this sight, was that each snake/reptilian entities within the hive-like allocation structures within the matrix of rows and columns, was that the outer circle which contained the head of the reptiles, were completely stable - i.e. not moving - while the inner body was spiralling inwardly towards the central point of the spiral.

The female voice was telling me, as i was watching this while zooming out of the matrix structure, to "rember the symbols". The voice specifically told me "it is easy to remember the symbols".

The snake seemed to be caught within their alocation points in the matrix structure, as if they were trapped within their individual allocation points within the matrix.

Also, as the voice was talking to me, telling me that it was easy to remember the symbols, i felt as if something was being pulled from the side of my body, as if something was removed from my organism.

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